Drowning

Do you ever feel like your drowning? I'm talking figuratively. Have you ever felt so lost that you can't leave your bed? That was me today. Crying on and off and trying to figure out why I am feeling the way I am feeling. It's quite frustrating when consciously you know that you want to move forward but there is something inherently stuck that will not allow it. I am talking to myself to find out why I am feeling this way. Changing limiting beliefs is difficult to begin with but when your family members have those same beliefs and they are net yet conscious of them, they cannot help in any way. In fact I feel repelled at the thought of explaining how I feel to them.  I'm alone. I don't have a place to go when I am drowning.  They say you have to look inside yourself to get the answers. Well, I wasn't exactly born with the gift of patience. I want to move forward. I am ready. I am also feeling lost. What is the next step? I sat quietly while I breathed. I can't shut my mind off for like five seconds let alone ten minutes.. I am writing this here in part to help myself but also so others  don't feel as alone as I do right now. It's always helpful to remember that you are never alone. But, I am pretty sure you get what I'm saying.  Nothing is permanent and everything is always changing. Just learn and grow. Whoever is meant to be in your life will keep up.